Covid-19 situation looms over us. As it got worse, on 9 Apr, the government do not allow us to drop children off at grandparent's place daily. Hence, after much discussion, we decided to drop off Priscilla at grandparent's place on 13 Apr (Mon) morning and likely have her come back on 17 Apr (Fri) evening.
So, today, 13 Apr, is the first day without Priscilla and just with Phoebe alone, Chris and work to do.
To Phoebe,
Today is the day jie is not here. Do you miss her? Do you know she's not around? Can you find a missing voice?
Today, I got to play with you soooo much more. I got to spend time and undivided attention looking at you, smiling at you, hugging you and observing you. I got to see you take some more first steps and even finally got a video of it to share and to keep!
Today, we watched the heavy rain from the window, lay down on the mat and you explored my face, watched how you navigate and maneuver the lock on the playpen and so much more! I finally FINALLY have the time to be WITH you instead of trying to manage both of your interactions that sometimes are not positive.
You got to play with jie's toys without her shouting, "Nooooo". And you get to touch the blocks, play with it, play the piano, move from one place to another. I see so much freedom that you have and that I have too without managing the screaming.
I'm thankful and happy. For now. I'm thankful that you have the space and thankful that I can spend this time with you. It's been long overdue. And it's something I should think about when jie comes back; how should I manage and handle both of you better and give time and energy and the devotion to you as well.
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